I'm wondering how I can get myself into 100% focus and concentration.

This is frustrating.

I need to boost my marks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Globalization.

Research. research. research.

My Life.

The Sad Clown.
How ironic.

Is that me?

What is life? What is it about? Why would things never come to a happy ending? Why does it have to end like this?

I'm frustrated. I'm sad. I'm lost in my own world.

Why do I have to understand things first? Why do I have to be thoughtful? Why does the whole thing come back to me?

Why.

I just want to live life like everyone else. No one will understand me. And I don't expect anyone to. Just don't put the blame on me. And let me be me. Because I never did and never will be able to.

My Life.

Its Easter Sunday.
I went to Church with Doris and Kevin today.
Then we went out for lunch.
I got a pair of adidas shoes too.. (after one whole month)

As I was just about to start getting my assignments done, I received bad news again.
It's only been 1 year 11 days that I've been in Canada.

Grandma passed away.
and now my beloved Uncle James passed away.
I miss him alot but I know that he will always be in my heart.

I pray that my dad is going to be strong enough to hold the family together.
I miss home.
I want to be home.
I want to see everybody.

I miss him.

My Thoughts.

I miss me and them.

My Thoughts.

I was just thinking.... Why am I so stressed out? I'm just overreacting.

Things aren't as hard as they seem to be.

If I could just take a breather and look at the destruction I did to myself, I should be ashamed.

Life isn't that bad. It's pretty sweet.

That's why I should probably take it easy like how I used to. Things will work out. Eventually.

My Life.

Life has never been better.

My Update.

Lots of things going on right now.

I'm sick. I'm sick. and I'm sick.

Quit one of my jobs (on leave of absence right now.. but will quit officially by mid-may)
Midterms coming up (3 this week)
Research paper due
and I'm sick.

I feel sick. I am sick and I hate it when I'm sick because I get lazy.

But heck I gotta pull myself together cos I've spent so much money and time in school I better make this work. If I don't study for my midterms I'd better be ashamed of myself.
crap.

i hate being sick.

lots of things running through my head lately.
how i wished someone could give me the right answers.

My Anniversary

March 12 2008.

My one year in Edmonton. Back in Edmonton.

I was working on a blog that would tell the long story short, but I have a research paper due tomorrow. So I will blog another day.

Anyways, I left Miri for a year, left Malaysia for a year, and I'm back here.

I miss little Daven. I hope he's enjoying every moment back there without being terrorized by ME! muahahhaah~

My Love.

guys that play the piano <3

Jay Chou is amazing!

My Life.

I found the courage. I finally did.

I am quitting my job. After 11 months.

I will miss my co-workers. I will miss the company.

But I need to quit.

yum

peanut butter + apple slices.

My Update.

I'm eating peanut butter.

yumm..

Self-control

I am learning this specific skill : self-control

1. I need to control myself from using my money : I am NOT going to use my mastercard anymore. NOT. NOT. NOT. will not use it.

2. I need to control myself from buying food: NO more fast food. NO NO NO. If I don't know how to cook, I rather starve it. No more fast food = saves money = saves belly fat.

3. I need to control myself with my studying schedule : When I say I need to study, I need to study. Procrastination? = no longer exists in my dictionary.

PHEW~ this is gonna be hard.

but self-control... I really need to learn and adapt this skill FAST!!!!!!!

When do you know?

1. That you're a shopaholic?

2. That you've got an obsession with buying things?

3. That you get broke like almost every month?

4. That you're just Donna?

I think this appears in my blog more than ever... but I'm broke again. *sobs*