note my day. BOO

quick update.

June 3 2009

slept in til 11.30am..
spent the WHOLE day at home.. Doris watching her movie, me reading Eclipse, and the kids doing whatever.
drove out in the afternoon..... bought the more slushie drinks cos it was bloody hot out.. and then BAM. my car accident :(

yeah... i was careless enough to not watch what I was doing.. I was reversing and I heard a car honking.. but I didn't know it was actually honking me. then BAM I hit right into the car. Bum on bum.
thank god my parents aren't mad.. but there's some damage to both cars. the other driver was really nice we'll fix her car FOR SURE once my daddy is back (tomorrow night) and yeah.. i'm gonna live the rest of my holiday without driving. SOBS. sam I miss you. I rather get a speeding ticket then an accident.
BOO.
spent the rest of my day at home, finished eclipse.. now I'm gonna wait til I get my hands on the next book. MUAHAHHAHAHA.

had CRABS for dinner today.. and I cut my finger while eating that. yah talk about being careless.
I miss Edmonton... not the place. but my friends. =) and my girl friends left my hometown for school... so I'm kindaaaa lonely. thank god for family.

I need MAGNIFYING GLASSES and Glasses that help with side views. ARGH.

on the good side of the note: daddy's back tomorrow night! YAY to that! more parties!!!!

LG Rumour =)

Best thing that happened today:

MY NEW PHONE IN THE MAILBOX!!!
<3

Hope this lasts til I graduate.

I'm a sucker.

My net income for 2008 was over 30K.

But I saved nothing. OMG.

My net income for 2007 was just about 20K.

And I saved nothing.

*SOBS*

I'm the worst spender ever :( and I thought I'd get better.

and the worst part? I'd only get 230 dollars back. FROGS.

*cries*

How do I spend so much? I need counselling. =(

i have a feeling that i'm losing the grip to life.
i lost the feeling i once had towards work and life.
i lost everything that used to be here.
i dont know what i want anymore.
i dont know. i dont know.
i cant mingle. i cant socialize. i cant do anything right. im socially awkward and im not proud of it.
this is nuts. this is not fun.
im turning 21 soon and there's nothing i want more than my life back.
i hate how my sister has an expectation on how i should behave.
i think i should give up my purpose to stay here.
do i really want to?

went to the award gala for "You're Welcome Edmonton Awards", I guess I achieved at LEAST something in life. I was a nominee out of so many. and this was a great experience. i also realised that there's a disadvantage to being allergic to alcohol. damn asian blood.
freaking caucasian guy needs to check himself out in the mirror and get someone to judge his talents before he bluffs. oh gowd! gross guy. wonder why he got nominated. bleh~

anyways... skydiving? need to get that done soon. life? need to find it back.